I doubt anyone who hasn't finished the book yet is reading this, but I'm posting it anyway.

I haven't started reading it yet, but I'm about to. And I know just where. I have a little cupboard under my stairs, and I'm going to read it there (as long as I can stand the stuffyness of it). It's where it all started (not my cupboard, of course). It just feels right.

I can't believe it's the last book.

Happy reading to everyone.

Chapter 21 of GoF. 1 am. More than halfway through the book.

So I know it's been a very long time and I should be making my apologies now but I haven't got the time or the brain power to make them out well. I'll just say I'm sorry it's been so long, for now.

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BASICALLY, I am crazy and trying to finish the third book (only a few chapters to go) and get through the fourth and fifth before Friday night, when I go see the fifth movie. I really want to have read the fifth book again before I see the movie.

WISH ME LUCK. I am going to finish Prisoner of Azkaban tonight, I started it this afternoon, right after finishing Chamber of Secrets. I have some room cleaning to do in the next few days, and my friend Krissy is coming to help me on Thursday/Friday. I have to be at work at 1 tomorrow, but that's not too early so I might get in a fair few hours of reading, if I GET UP. Which I need to. AAAAA

These are all the pictures I took on Tuesday. Please be reminded the camera was TEN DOLLARS. Actually for ten dollars they didn't turn out that bad. But still not the greatest camera in the world.

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So yesterday (Wednesday) I took a day off and just pretty much slept/did nothing. I needed a break from life basically. I wish I could take a bigger one but I kind of can't. And it's still hard to take a break from your own life when you're...you.

But bweeheehee. Tuesday was fun!

I shall rememba now:

I got on the train in the morning but couldn't really get into Sorcerer's Stone, partially because I was FREAKING TIRED and partially just cause I was having a little trouble. I've read it a billion times and honestly compared to the other books, it's a little boring, especially the beginning. No offense Jo. I still love it though. (honestly it's also just part of...dunno, me kind of being weird about life)

I met my friend Jeremy at North Station and we hopped on the green line and went to Park Street, and then went to Central Square so I could get a disposable camera, because I forgot to get my grandpa's digital camera. I actually ended up getting a kind of cheap camera but it's not disposable so that's nice. It was from Walgreen's and so if I take it into Walgreen's when it's full they'll replace the film for free...forever. I only took like 4 pictures or so that day, haha. It's not a great camera, but it was 9.99 on sale blahbalahhahaha.

Then we went to Porter Square to catch the commuter rail to Waltham, but alas, we missed our train. I was like, "Well, we better f*** around for a while." So we went outside of the Porter Square station, and I was like, "Okay, so what's cool to do in Porter Square?" And Jeremy checked on his phone cause it has internet and then we realized there was nothing to do in Porter Square. I should have gotten a picture of the outside of it but I didn't because I just didn't. I would have captioned it, "Hey, let's do something cool in Porter Square. Oh, there's nothing cool to do in Porter Square."

So then we went to Harvard Square!!!! And we went to LUSH!!! It's like this bath and beauty store that has all natural stuff in it but it's like...still hip and stuff I guess? Look it up, lol. Anyway, OMG I pretty much have to go there if I go to Harvard Square. Even if I don't buy anything, which I usually shouldn't because it's so freaking expensive. But it smells soooooooo goooooood. I pick up everything and smell it. At one point I was like, "Jeremy I have to get out of here, I'm like mauling my olfactory senses right now." Then we went to the bookstore and pre-ordered Deathly Hallows for KRISSY!!!! And I bought the Mugglenet book about all the theories and ideas they have about the HP books and what's going to happen in book Seven.

So we left and honestly I can't remember what we did next hahaha. Oh we just walked around. And then we went back to Porter so we could go to Waltham and then we did and then we lost track of time and I was like OH CRAP THE TRAIN OH CRAP I CAN'T RETURN MY LIBRARY BOOKS hahahaha so I didn't.

Then we went to Chinatown and got vegan asian food and then I went to the OCD meeting. Which was like...
weird. I honestly thought I could update about it tonight but I don't know if I can. It was slightly stress inducing and I really don't feel like writing about my OCD right this moment.

So that's pretty much it for Tuesday. There will be a separate entry for Wednesday.

At the end of Tuesday, I was on page 18 of SS.

Pictures coming soon. Uploading is being dumb right now :)

Interesting day today. I'm sorry I haven't updated yet. I'm feeling a bit off. Anxiety is not being my friend today.

I will though, not to worry.

I have some pictures I want to post, unfortunately they are not on a digital camera, they're on a 10 dollar one I got from Walgreens (not disposable either woo) so I have to wait until I've finished taking the pictures on it.

Update either today or tomorrow. Once again I'm sorry.

I should have updated this morning saying HEY GUYS I'M STARTING MY TRIP BWAHHHHH

But I didn't. Haha. I'm at my old school transferring some files and stuff.

I'll update fully when I get home so I can have everything in one post.

It's been a nice day though. I wish it was a bit brighter out, but I can't really complain :)

See ya later :)

So tomorrow I have kind of a loose plan as far as where I'm going, because I have a few things I have to do. Such as:

Meet my friend Jeremy in Waltham and get something from him
Go to Harvest Co-op, Trader Joe's, and...yeah ok that's all the groceries I need
Return my library books in Waltham, and pay the fines and for the book I left on the train (THIS IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN AGAIN, HAHA)
Go to Harvard Square and pre-order Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows for my friend Krissy

And:
There is an OCD anonymous group in Harvard Square that I'm going to be attending for the first time. The meeting's at 6. A little cool to start off the trip like this, huh?

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I think I better go shopping after everything else is done. I need to have things not melting. Fortunately I have bags, and a freezer bag :)

I still don't know what the hey I'm wearing. I think I'll do some laundry.

As far as where I'm going to go, I think I'll briefly look at the North Station schedules, and I'm also going to head to South Station and grab all of those too.

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I better get packing though. I gotta get to bed at a good time.

Let's make a list of what I need:
My backpack (I hope it can all fit in my little red one, but it might all not)
My hard drive
Some foods, although I'm going to buy a little at the Co-Op probably
The Sorceror's Stone! I also checked out Fantastic Beasts And Where To Find Them from the library, and I have Quidditch Through The Ages as well.
My library books
My iPod+headphones+charger
My wallet
My checkbook
My paychecks
Deodorant
My phone+charger
Shopping bags, at least 3

To do tonight:
Laundry
Make sure I have food
Straighten up the room I'm in

Tomorrow:
Deposit my paychecks

AND GO GO GO!!!!!

So today was a gross day. I've been trying to stop taking tylenol pm, which I've been taking pretty much every night for the past five years or so. It's not good for you. So I've been going most nights without it, but sometimes I just can't sleep, and it's hard when I have to get up fairly early in the morning to go to work. Like last night.

So I had my grandpa call in "sick" to my boss, and then later found out my grandpa had told my boss why I wasn't coming in, because she had asked him and he just really can't lie. I was really pissed about that when he came into my room at 9:30 and told me that my boss wanted me there at 10:00. Which left me with less than 15 minutes to get ready.

My tylenol pm was still in effect for quite a few hours today while I was working. Not fun.

I did apologize to my boss though. I think she really likes me and I don't want her to think I'm an irresponsible employee. She didn't have anyone else working that morning...and I don't know where else I'm going with that thought, I just wanted to say it.

The reason I wanted to not work was because I have really bad anxiety and it was just surmounting as I was trying to get to sleep, getting more and more upset making it harder for me to fall asleep. I hate doing something on like 2 or 3 hours of sleep, and was honestly just trying to take care of my physical and mental health. Sometimes I just gotta not be okay though I guess.

BUT NEXT POST ABOUT MY ADVENTURE TOMORROW!!!! I wish I was a little more excited, but I am exhausted as hell.

Cleaning my room was not the greatest experience ever today. I probably worked on it for about two hours total, maybe less, and I felt like I got nothing done, even though I did get some stuff done. I have such cruddy concentration levels sometimes. I have ADHD too (should probably put that in the info and the last entry), but I was on my Adderall.

I was really just cleaning the front part of my room, where I freaking get into it. It was just trash trash trash. I was sorting through stuff, mostly the trash itself, haha, because I'm a recyclin' kinda gal.

My bedroom floor, let me explain it. It's got layers. Freaking layers. It's almost like the different crusts of the earth, except for some weird reason, some things that I was just using yesterday will end up at the very bottom, but only on a rare occasion. But it's gross. There's so much paper that I have to sort through to figure out if I should keep it, and phone numbers without names, and then piles upon piles of newspapers. Let me tell you about my newspapers.

My OCD...well...it tells me to pick newspapers I see almost every time I get off the train. When I was going to school (I graduated just recently) I had 4 train trips in total every day. That's a lot of newspapers. How many of them do I have? I've guesstimated around 100. How many have I read? Maybe 30. I'm not exactly sure. But I haven't been able to get rid of them. I feel a panic every time I'm about to, and I just can't. Hopefully in the end I will be able to, because I certainly can't keep them forever.

So today didn't go terribly great, because I got up late and didn't do a lot of work. I procrastinated quite a bit...but I found four dollars and 76 cents in change! It's probably from when I worked at Dunkin Donuts, still drifting around all over the floor.

Maybe I should just be proud of the work I did do though, instead of beating myself up, like I do every time, which certainly feels...not good. So let's feel proud! Okay! I'll do that! I cleaned up most of the doorway in front of my bed, half filled a recycling thing full of paper, finished filling up the trash can, and found moneys.

Somedays I just gotta stop beating the crap out of me and use that hand to pat my back instead.

So I've decided to make this into more than just a journal about my Harry Potter adventure.

First of all, because I work practically all week, I won't be taking more than one or two days from the week to go on trains. I don't think one or two updates a week is fun at all.

Second of all, this journey means more to me than just Harry Potter. Harry Potter means more to me than just a fun book. It was once one of the only things that kept me going; I could disappear into it. I felt safe, and I felt like I belonged to something. And the Harry Potter fandom is really amazing too. If you've ever been to a wizard rock concert, you'll know that it literally feels like being in a big room of love.

I haven't read the books since the last one came out. I've tried but haven't been able to get into them again. That is part of what this journal is about.

I'll also be working on cleaning my room in the next month(s). I've always been a very very messy person, and hardly ever have a clean room, so this is really big for me. I've got ADHD as well, which plays a big part in my procrastination, trouble focusing/concentrating, and general lack of motivation. These make it kind of hard to clean a room and keep it clean.

I also have OCD, or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I'm not currently being treated by outside sources, just myself. For me, OCD is kind of like a "voice" in my head telling me that I have to do or not do certain things, for reasons like, "This is your destiny" or "Terrible things will happen". It's all irrational, but it's still hard to fight. When I try or even think to defy it, I feel an onset of panic and anxiety. But I'm working on getting better at fighting it.

The OCD plays a part in cleaning my room, because I have so many things I just need to get rid of, but feel like I can't.

So when I'm not updating about my train adventures, I'll be updating about my room and my OCD. It will be a really good motivation for me to both get my room clean and beat my OCD. Any encouragement is greatly appreciated.

Suggestions! I need suggestions!

What characters should I dress up as on my fancy trip?

If you know about any cool places in Boston, tell me!

What should I do?

Anything cool and Harry Potter related I should do/eat?


Anything that comes to mind, tell me!

Thanks to you guys who have friended me so far!

So, I was planning on waking up at a normal time this morning, but I put a heater next to my bed last night, and every time I woke up I was groggy as hell. I didn't realize until my grandpa came and and grumbled at me, that it was because of the heater that I was so groggy.

So I've knocked a few hours off my planning for today. I also have to work on my room, eek!

But for today, I need to:

Call my boss and figure out if I have Monday or Tuesday off
Make a Harry Potter outfit
Plan exactly where I'm going, although I know I am going to Waltham, because I need to return my library books, and work on a few things at my old school (long story, lol), and I need to go shopping as well
Figure out what I'm going to eat; it will probably be brought along

And there. It's 12:39 and way too late to be waking up for a planning day! I need to get on this waking up business!

But alohomora to all you good folks out there. And such. I just unlocked your minds. Be free!

This was the post I made in my other journal. Just thought it might be good to post it here too.

I bought a monthly train pass for this June, and I decided I was going to do what I've always wanted to do--ride a train back and forth for a whole day. Except I'm going to do this more than one day. I'm going to ride as many trains as I can, spread out on various days and go all over the place.And I'm bringing the Harry Potter books with me.

As I ride a million trains, I'm also going to visit different towns on the train stops. I'll also go on the subways, although less than the trains. Subways are kind of icky and aren't really a ride+relaxation. They are A Way To Get You There.

I realized I can't just do this without planning where I'm going to go, because trains have schedules, but mostly because I want to make the most out of it, and actually visit places.

I'm going to make a new journal to chronicle my adventure in. It's not made yet because I always have a helluvatime coming up with names, but it will be made soon. I'm planning on starting my adventure maybe this weekend, but I'm not sure because it's such a short time to plan.

I'm probably going to dress a little special and Harry Potter-ish when I go on the trains. Maybe I'll go as different characters, if I'm brave. I might I'll recon some old clothes and put some Harry Potter fabric in them. I'm making myself a dress for the Harry and the Potters concert/book release night. I'm going to recon some old clothes and use some Harry Potter fabric and it's going to be totally craaaaaazy. I have to handsew though, I think, unless my across the street neighbor will let me use her sewing machine, because ours is broken, and my aunt who sews won't be here until the 30th (she could probably fix it).

So expect an entry with the new journal in it, soon-ish.